stupid thought
you know what i wish? that i stop feeling dramatic and shitty over nothing. my head is so fucking loud and it feels like i’m back to square one.
what hurts the most is how i can’t really tell anyone what’s going on anymore. what’s the point? like dude, i stopped telling my best friend what im doing. i haven’t even told them i’ve been hanging out with my other friend group. lol
i don’t even know what’s the root of me feeling so shitty and it makes me so fucking mad. there’s nothing to complain about. so why the hell am i feeling like this. i feel so fucking lost and stupid i don’t know anymore.
i’m losing myself again.
i don’t even know who the fuck i am anymore. i’m not happy. it was all just one big lie. i don’t like it here. it’s getting harder to resist the urge to relapse.
i’m so tired. i’m so sorry.