i am very very tired
truth is no one really cares about me. the idea that i’m no one’s first choice comes back to haunt me again.
call me dramatic but at this point i really don’t care. it’s true, even after all these years. it sucks that it seems this way. i know i’m being selfish for thinking like this but again i don’t give a fuck.
my best friend is probably still hung up on their ex, my close friend group all has each other. it just sucks. like yeah i have friends but.. it doesn’t seem real anymore. i don’t know what’s real.
i don’t know what’s happening. maybe this is all just one big blob just to express the fact that i’m relapsing. lol
idk.