4:33am
im exhausted. ive been feeling tired for a while, but anyway its 4:30am in the morning and yikes i can hear the birds chirping. hooray. its like a reward. everytime i stay up late in the night and hear the birds. its like a reminder of how fucked up my sleeping schedule is.
so i was talking to a friend on discord and i mentioned to them abt my summer sleeping pattern and wow. i never knew i was that lonely and vulnerable. like, if i have no plans i just rot at home. i never realized how depressing that is until someone else mentioned it to me. ive been doing that for the past two summers. staying up late, going to bed around 5am-7amish, my body waking up before 12pm despite that and just rotting at home. i dont do much, really. i have no activities. its shitty. i know.
i mean at least this summer i have friends to hang out with but then there are nights like these. i can never escape it.
i should probably go to bed instead of complaining. stayed up so late my eyes got dry and they started watering. thats kinda funny.
im just glad i brushed my teeth. i wont have to wake up later and feel like ass knowing i have to brush my teeth. ill be overthinking abt the bacteria and then ill have cavities. god.